argh! never ending nanny troubles!

i haven't updated my blog for such a loooong time... ( a week!) so what happened? where do i start?

the past two weeks have been so tiring but strangely fulfilling. as i've posted before, i've been up as early as 4:30 to prepare hubby's breakfast and lunch. i wait for the nanny who comes in at around 6:15, then i leave for work. yep, i can't believe it myself, because prior to hubby's new job, i'd wake up at around 6:15-6:30 and leave for work at around 7:10, and as expected... i am usually late. 2 weeks of perfect attendance and zero tardiness at work! woohoo! snaps for me! this is something new for me! for the first time, i walked in our office with my head held high... instead on just sneaking in and hoping no one notices. and still... some good things are never meant to last. last monday, i woke up early as usual. prepared everything, got dressed, changed bea's diaper, fixed bea's breakfast... then waited for the nanny. 6:15.. no nanny. 6:30.... no nanny. hubby finally called her... only to be told that she won't be coming... grrrr! she had our cell phone number, was it too much to spend a peso to text us and inform us that we were actually eagerly waiting for NO ONE!

i felt bad because i had to stay up till 1am the night before ironing our clothes... then wake up at 4:30 to get ready for work... only to be greeted by a no show from our nanny... the worse thing about it is that since i had to stay home to take care of my little one... i'm absent from work again! hmp. and i thought i was going to make it through october with no absences.... oh well...

i just don't feel comfortable with our nanny set up. i wish we can find someone who can stay in with us.